Don't Bite the Mommy that Feeds You

I started Beck on formula today. Ugh!! I am feeling bad, and little guilty. I have been so dedicated to breastfeeding. I breastfed Aubrey for 7 1/2 months and that is exactly how old Beck is now. But he has started biting me during all the daytime feedings and he is such a destracted eater that I feel like my production has gone down a little bit. But to remedy this he has started night nursing quite often like a newborn. Like I feed him at 9:30 pm and he usually wakes again around 2 am and nurses 3 or 4 times to eat before 8 am. I have been exahusted and not sleeping well. So when he started biting the last few days I have decided to exclusively formula feed him. I am so sore from the biting that it hurts now when he is just eating and not biting. So I have ended my breastfeeding for good and Beck will most likely be our last child. I am feeling a little sad to miss the quiet private time that I shared with both of my beautiful children but at the same time a little free. Now I can have my body back and not worry about if I can nurse in the shirt that I am wearing plus I get to wear real bras again. It was such a hard descsion to make, and now I am second guessing myself I guess. I keep going back and forth.

He did take the bottle fairly well though (one of my fears about switching him to formula). He took 4 oz after fussing for about 10 minutes around 6ish and the he ate some green beans and carrots around 8ish. And then he had over 6 oz around 9:30 and then passed out. Maybe he will sleep all night. So I guess that I need to figure out how many ounces that he needs everyday and get him on some kind of a schedule. He pretty much demand fed while I was nursing.

And I was bummed about having to go buy formula. It's so expensive!! I registered on the formula website this evening to get some coupons. And I am pretty sure that I am going to look like a porn star in the morning with some huge boobs.